Blazing Through Darkness

I stole that "Blazing Through Darkness" from one of my favorite John Berryman poems Op. post. no. 12.  Finally, I get to use it!

Doctor visit over and here's the news:  The PET scan came back clear.  This came with a caution that it didn't mean there weren't cells somewhere that were replicating as we speak, but the chemo should take care of that.  Huge, anxious-ridden load gone!  I can breathe again.

Next we will be putting in a port for the chemo, electrocardiogram, something else I'm forgetting; and  I have to do these before we even start the chemo that is slated for next Friday.  It will be a busy week.  I'll be on Cytoxin, Adriamycin, and one other that also escapes me right now, but is taken at the same time as the Cytoxin.  There are a myriad of other companion meds as well but those are the big ones.  Schneikies, this is so weird.  Have I mentioned how freakin' scary I think chemo is?  Only totally.  Wish my doctor could have used a Jedi mind trick on me so I could remember all this stuff but I do keep an organized notebook to help.  The hospital will just call me to do stuff and and I will comply.

I will lose my hair.  She wrote a prescription for a "cranial prosthesis," a wig.  "Dispense 1" Cute, huh?  I'm looking forward to this, why you might ask.  Well, I remember actresses Persis Khambatta, and Sigourney Weaver saying about shaving their heads for roles how sensitive the scalp is and how incredibly good it felt to run their hands over their bald heads.  Yeah, I want that!  Won't be forever and I'm wishing and hoping my hair comes back in curly!

Dear Friends/Co-workers:  Make sure I'm drinking a lot of water.  Very important!  This is how these poisons are excreted from the body and I suck at Water 101.  I try... but I suck.  Must do better starting now!  Gonna get a big ol' water receptacle, gonna fill it up and drink it!

David and I had lunch at the Iron Rabbit before leaving the Olympia area, my new favorite restaurant, we had lamb burgers.  I'm in love with this restaurant.  They have a tartar sauce that has an unidentifiable ingredient that makes it so different from all others!  Stop it, it's deeply meaningful, and important because another week and  I won't want to eat!

Dear David,
"You and I, we're like 4 year olds
We want to know why and how come about everything
We want to reveal ourselves at will and speak our minds
And never talk small
And be intuitive
And question mightily and find god."

Dear Alanis, I found my "like-minded companion."