Too graphic? Toughen up.
Hands are swollen and I have rashes on both, when they get warm, naturally or by putting them in water they burn. Same with the feet, sans the rash. The feet are dry and need constant attention. Hurt. Nails are... turning brown and a little crumbly.
The big 3 dose chemo brought back diarrhea, with a vengeance. I'll just say if you can imagine a cartoon where the character is turning themselves completely inside out through their butt... well, I think you've got the picture (Robert Crumb could do that cartoon easily). That's now I feel... every time. Doc has me on Rx Loperamide to slow the entire system down, and if I miss a dose or wait too long... again, you got it. Miserable, and makes you not want to eat to stimulate the system. Then, if that wasn't enough... there's the (because your head's so f**ked up)... wait... did I take those pills??? I can't remember... Geez.
Major bloody noses at least twice a day. Clots and blood. It's the drying effect of chemo. I use moisturizing saline nasal spray and Aquaphor, both help but... clots and blood. If anyone has any helpful hints please share.
Oh the fatigue of it all!
I've just spent the equivalent of 3 days on my back and sides. Sleeping my life away with no choice in the matter. Well, I guess I have a choice but not a good one yet. I've not been functioning well at all.
There are times I can both see and hear my pulse. Weird, huh?
This late afternoon I am feeling a little spark, long enough to sit up and write this entry. Miserable as it is... it is what it is and tomorrow will be better, and the next day... which is another chemo day.
I'm trying to quit irony but it just won't let me.
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