Tired

That's all... just tired

I had a good visit with the doctor today, the last two visits I was not so happy with so this made me feel better.  We talked about the neuropathy in the hands and feet, it did get a small measure of better a couple of weeks after the Taxol was discontinued but now is maintaining a "status quo."  That's okay, I'll take it!

She acknowledged what I rough time I'm having.  There's sometimes a fine line between bolstering you up that can sometimes come off as dismissive, or minimizing.  To hear her say that made me feel better about feeling heard... because I was beginning to think the other.

I have 3 more infusions of Abraxane (picture below, an unsettling milky color), and around 10 more months of Herceptin.  I'll also be taking a pill for 5 years to reduce estrogen production since I seem to have a crazy "over-production" and one of the two cancers is sensitive to this hormone.

I'm going to have a sit down with the radiation folks in the next few weeks so we can talk about that.  At the time of my tumor surgery every single place that the doc took a biopsy sample from was cancerous.  So she said radiation is vitally important since chemo does not disperse well in breast tissue.

Does this make you wonder why I've been going through all this pain and agony with chemo?  Hard to ignore, and the answer is simple, all the lymph nodes were involved, it's a fast growing metastatic cancer so we're treating the WHOLE body.  Just need that radiation to pinpoint the breast and chest wall where the tumor was.  Not looking forward to that.

Right at this moment I'm sleepy from the Benadryl.  Tired from everything, yes still symptoms from the last 3 or so posts.  Packing for a move, glad I have a month to do that in.  It's: pack, rest, pack, rest, drink & eat, pack, rest, repeat.

How I feel a lot of the time:

Peace Out!